Beloved, STOP: shedding tears, living in pains and sorrows; feeling/saying 'I have NO one, like her/him/them, to LOVE me, to support/guide me'. It is a LIE of the devil/ungodly [John 8.44]. My friend, You are NOT here by yourself, You are NOT your order, but GOD's. Though You Don't: see/hear/feel HIM/BIBLE, GOD sees/hears/knows you 24/7/365. In fact GOD feels sad, saying 'Ox knows its master,.. my people Don't Know me'[Isaiah 1.3]. Know this, You have a: Creator, Master, Father, Friend; who LOVES YOU so Much. GOD says, HE is closer to broken hearted. So, whenever you are dull/down/depressed; GOD is right next to You [Psalms 51.17]. Receive HIM [Revelation 3.20]. Truth. Wisdom. Choice.