Very SADLY, Many of us who have not received JESUS as their personal Savior yet, who are still outside Christianity are Not very happy to accept JESUS, become Christians, reason being; many who preach CHRIST Don't Practice what they preach, their Words has no relation to their deeds [Philippians 3.18-19]. Beloved come back to your senses please and become and be the model, be an example, be the guide my friend. It is true No one is perfect, we all have our own flaws and weakness but that is not a licence to do whatever we choose so please try your best to practice what you preach...