You are in charge of your Life and you are Responsible for your Future. So, Stop blaming GOD and others. You can't Fail without your Consent or You can't Succeed without your Participation [Matthew 6.33]. That's why GOD made Salvation and Blessings as Individual, Personal and as a Choice; Giving us all Information through His Word the BIBLE with Freewill and Freedom to Choose and Decide for ourselves [Ecclesiastes 7.29], [John 3.16], [Revelation 3.20], [Romans 10.9-10]. Others may control us physically at time but NO man or devil can control your Spirit, Soul from Reaching and Pleasing GOD [Nahum 1.7]. NONE can Monitor/Control what WE Believe/Reason, except GOD [Jeremiah 17.10], [1 Samuel 16.7]. So, seek GOD wholeheartedly to be: Delivered, Saved and Blessed. Truth. Wisdom. Choice.