My friend, YOU might have had a Bad start in Life, it doesn't matter but You can always have an AWESOME Finish in JESUS. Know for Sure that 'DEATH' is Not the End but the Real Beginning of Your LIFE, Either in Heaven or in Hell, based purely on our Individual Choices and Decisions, Accepting or Rejecting GOD/BIBLE now while living on earth [Ecclesiastes 12.13-14], [Deuteronomy 30.15 & 19], [Daniel 12.3-4]. WE Can't CHANGE our past, its OVER. So STOP Weeping and Worrying over it, Wasting away whatever little Life left in you but the Good News is, WE can Always CHANGE our FUTURE, Accepting and Applying the TRUTH [John 14.6]. GOD LOVES US, GOD is for us, GOD created Heaven for us and Hell for Devil and his angels [Matthew 25.41]. So, STOP Ignoring, Neglecting, Rejecting this LOVING GOD JESUS [Revelation 3.20]. Truth. Wisdom. Choice. Share.